first off today is the first day in a while i feel.... optimistic? that being said i wasn't not before, but i'm just very aware of it now and am trying to keep myself under control, think good thoughts and not get carried away or too hopeful as sometimes that has a way of tripping me up.
so i work two jobs. one is busiest from may long weekend to thanksgiving long weekend, then nothing in between, hence why i got a second job. that job is also based on similar busy times as well as christmas. they both get crazy at march break too. now i took that second job because the first one was leaving me high and dry for the winter. that first job is my heart. i love it and the people. unfortunately the only way for me to get to be full time permanent and work year round is if one of those people leave. now i definitely have my favourites and wouldn't necessarily mind seeing a person or two leave but i hate to think any bad thoughts like that cause i'm a big believer in karma. and no i'm not perfect so i have seen it at work first hand.
the second job i took because it was available and sort of similar to my first job and lets face it i still have bills to pay. i thought it would be okay, and it is. just okay. the hours are great when they're there but in the last two weeks i have worked 3 half days cause its slow right now. not helpful. but i cant just quit because a) thats foolish, and b) well, i suppose see "a". today i came across a sign though. possibly. well literally, it was a sign, but i think it was kind of a sign too. its another job opportunity in a field i have been thinking about heavily lately. one i have no professional training in but am semi-pro at in my mind, and the minds of a few others, not to toot my own horn. i had even been thinking of how to get training lately thats how adamant i was that it was the right path and how much i wanted out of my second job.
so that's the optimism aspect i suppose. this weekend i get to see my mum, we're very close and haven't seen each other in quite a few months.... since christmas? no i was home in there once or twice i think between. still! and even though the warm sunny original forecast is now calling for cooler rain it should still be nice to be at her cozy house visiting. and of course my manfriend will be joining us. he thinks it's 'neat' how my mum and my relationship works and how he feels around it and at her house. different dynamic than his childhood.
alas no pictures, i was just on the computer and had a moment and had some thoughts so here they are. i had wanted to be on here more but despite my best attempts to get it set up on my iphone, it will not cooperate. if it did there would be oh so many more posts. perhaps a slew even.
hope your spring is lovely.
